Deceptive Eyes : Chapter 2

PS: Usually PS refers to Post Script but this is Pre Script :) This is the first hand draft and I am feeling too lazy to edit it. So you may find a few errors.

Chapter:2

Today

Waitress called me again “Do you need something Sir?”
I said “One Fresh Lime please.”
She left me alone and I got some relief.

A beautiful girl with deep eyes wearing yellow and white entered the restaurant and said to the restaurant staff with a dimply smile
“I’m looking for Mr. Sunny.”
Soumya entered the restaurant.

A waiter accompanied her and showed my table. She was smiling and waved at me. She was looking as fresh and unperturbed as if nothing has happened. She was looking awesome in her yellow and white. Some part of my heart which was feeling betrayed a few moments ago, again started beating for her very fast. I don’t know how girls manage to look so good even in such circumstances. If I have to describe myself, I was looking pale as if I haven’t eaten and slept from last few months. My face was describing very clearly that I have not taken shower from last 2 days. The only thing that was saving me was heavy loads of cologne perfume and washed clothes. Immediately my brain took control over my heart and reminded me how she has betrayed me. Even her freshness is the proof that she doesn’t care a damn about me and the relationship. This thought enabled me to gather some strength and confront her.

“Hi” She said cheerfully.
“Hello” I replied in anguish. I was getting agitated from her easy and casual approach to the issue.
“How are you?”
“How I should be?”
“Probably good”
“I am not having affair with my ex-girlfriend and betraying you to feel good like you.” I said harshly.
She kept silent.
“What was wrong? Where I lacked? Was my love not sufficient enough? Or was it the physical needs which you miss very dearly after separating from him? But wait a minute; I remember you don’t like the physical aspect of love? Or was it because you don’t like someone else other than him touching you? And that was the reason you make disgusting faces when I try to touch you?”
She kept silent again. This agitated me even more.
“Don’t keep silent. Answer me!” I shouted.
Few people in the restaurant turned around and looked at us. They looked me with disgust and gave a stare as if I am the biggest weed of society who shouts and hits every girl he saw.
I somehow managed a smile to show that I am the innocent one.
“It was not like that” she murmured.
“Then how it is? Please tell me” I said slowly and carefully.
“I have not done any wrong. And, please don’t talk cheap things to me” she said with her head down.
I was fuming with the reply.
“I am talking cheap. You are shameless when you do it and when I ask why? I am cheap.”
She kept silent again with her head down hiding her face and eyes.
“You are darling of your entire office. You talk dirty with your ex even when you have promised me that you will not speak to him. And, above all, to remove the traces you were deleting the chats from your mail account.” I was talking as if I was drunk. Emotions were overpowering me.
“You betrayed me. I loved you from last 5 years and never thought about anyone else. My love was not good enough. What he had that I did not gave you? Why Soumya? Why?” I was crying and tears fell down my eyes.
“I love you Soumya and I will not come in between if you love Savraj. You don’t have to do all this. If you have just told me, I would have stepped aside on my own. And, I would have felt proud that at least this much I have earned in these 5 years that you told me directly and clearly. At least I have earned your friendship, if not love in these 5 years. But I am a loser. And, this loser still has feelings for you. I will go away from your life. You don’t have to feel bad. If some one asks you tell them that I had an affair in my office and ditched you. You will never see this loser again…….” I was talking with tears all over my face. I was feeling numb and emotionally broke down.
Soumya stopped me in between and lifted her head with tears all over her face “I will not do it again. Please forgive me. I will never talk to any one ever in my life. I have not done any wrong. I was just talking. And if you don’t like it, I will never talk to any one until you allow. But, please don’t leave me. I can’t live without you. I never thought that it will lead us to this point. Please forgive me.” she cried aloud.

Now everyone in the restaurant was looking at us. I don’t know why people just can’t mind their own business. They were looking at us as if some movie is going on. An innocent girl is crying before a rich brat to accept her and he is making some indecent proposals.
We both were embarrassed.

We stayed quiet for some time.
I looked around but nobody wanted to eat. They still don’t want to miss a single glimpse of the show we were presenting.
My cell phone buzzed hard to get my attention. I came back to my senses and checked my cell phone.
It was showing 8 missed calls from office.

I analyzed the situation and thought that this will not be sorted out at a public place.
“Let’s move out.” I requested Soumya.
“Ok.” She said wiping her face.

I paid the bill and immediately get out of the restaurant to save ourselves from more embarrassment.

My cell phone buzzed again and I took the call.
“Hello”
“Sunny, where are you? Its Pooja here”,
“Hi Pooja. Why you are calling me like hell”
“Come to Office immediately. Boss has called emergency meeting to discuss something very important and he has some important announcements to make.”
“But today is Saturday”
“I am not calling you. My duty was to give you the message. If you have any issues about Saturdays or Sundays, talk to boss directly.” And she banged the phone.
“What the F….” I shouted loud.
“What happened?” Soumya asked me.
“It’s my boss again. Devil wants to meet us all on Saturday. Why all such meetings he has to do on Saturdays only.”
“Now what?” she asked.
“I will see you at my place in the evening. We are still not done yet. We will discuss in evening.”
I said and rushed towards my office.

Pooja is the secretary of our big boss. She does practically all those works which our boss is supposed to do for us. Any how she is not important to be discussed. In fact I never gave her any importance in office as well and that was the reason, she treats me the same way.

I reached my office and saw no one around. I looked for Pooja and even she was not there in her cubical. I felt that the meeting has already started and I am late once again. All the hard work that I have put in this year will be wasted just because of this one day. I was working as a virtual team lead from last one year in the absence of any manager and I have given my heart and soul to get that place this year. Even a month back boss has informed that I will become manager this year considering the good works I have done in past one year. Now everything seems to be a distant dream just because of this entire mental trauma given by Soumya.

I checked all meeting rooms but all are empty. I saw one occupied training room and image of my boss. I rushed towards it and entered the room.

I saw some unknown faces and our MD. I immediately sensed that I have done a big blunder now and this will cost me my job.

‘Yes. What you want?” My boss enquired.

“Sorry Sir. I mistook this meeting as our team meeting you have called today.” I explained.
“Ok. I’m busy now. We will do it immediately after this meeting. Pass on this message to Pooja and every one.” He ordered.
“Ok. Sorry Sir.” I apologized once again.

I cursed Pooja for calling me so early and not giving complete information. I went towards canteen to cool me off.

I saw Pooja in the canteen eating with some new face.
This was strange because she always eats with our team mates to bring team spirit within the team for which boss has no time. And, I never understood how eating with entire team will bring team spirit. In fact it brings disgust in me to be forced to eat with all the idiots I don’t like. Anyhow that’s a different story.
“Why didn’t you tell me the time of meeting and why didn’t you inform me that boss is on some other meeting?” I confronted Pooja.
“You never gave me chance. I thought you are too busy to come as it is Saturday.” She said with a satisfaction grin on her face as if she has taken revenge of all the crap and insult I gave her every day.
I have no answers except abusing her which I can’t do in office. Sometimes I feel it’s very important to make good reputation with all the peons and PA’s. They can hurt you very bad when their time comes.

“Meet Mr Savraj Malhotra. He is the new joinee in our team.” Pooja opened her mouth again.

The name struck me like a hammer in my head. I was dumb folded for few seconds and don’t know how to react.
“Hi, Savraj” Savraj brings forward his hand with a smile.
“Hello, Sunny”, I said shaking hands with him in disbelief.

I have never seen any picture of Soumya’s ex-boyfriend but my heart keeps saying me that he is the same bastard. My mind took over and said that there are many people with same names in this world. God can’t be so cruel to me.

“I worked in Nat Communications earlier. I joined today only.” Savraj introduced himself.
“Where you belong basically?” My mind was still struggling to find the same answer.
“Kanpur”, he confirmed.
Now this was a strange coincidence because Soumya also belongs to Kanpur. And, obviously, her ex boy friend will also be from Kanpur only because she is with me in Mumbai after her graduation.

I looked at Savraj once again. He is short 5’5”, black in complexion and has some scary features. Physically he has good built with nice muscles but all those muscles were not suiting him because of his height. Moreover, he has a very strange cheeky girly voice. I looked at his plate and realized he don’t even know how to eat. I was dead sure that this guy can never get a girl like Soumya in his life. And, above all, taking girl from a guy like me will make this herculean task impossible for him.
I calmed down and realized the stupidity of my mind which is still stuck with Soumya.

“You guys carry on. I will join you in 10 minutes.” Pooja intervened.

I just hate this girl. Now I have to sit with this prototype of Soumya’s ex and face some more mental stress. I looked towards sky to find god to plead but of no help.

As soon as Pooja left, he started the conversation again.

“How is the office dude? I mean the chicks?” He winked me.

I was taken away by the sheer audacity of this guy. He was looking so decent when Pooja was here and now he is enquiring about the girls and that too on the very first day of his office.
“Pardon?” I asked

“Girls, dude. How are the girls here? You must be stud here. Are they open? How many you have banged?”

Now this guy is seriously pissing me off. I just can’t stand him. How dare he ask such questions on the first meeting? Yes guys talk like that but with friends. You can’t go to anyone and ask what is your score with the girls in this office? It’s not cricket score for god’s sake. Any how I calmed myself and remembered that he is my new team mate and this world is full of scoundrels. I will meet such guys every day and I have to work with them.

“None. I am not so popular with girls.” I replied decently.

“Huhhh.. I can’t believe it. You look great man. Even a guy like me scores here in Mumbai. You should be a heartthrob.” He says with a smile.

Now this must be a complement I believe. But, I am in no mood to take complements at this moment and especially not if his name is Savraj. I hate all Savrajs and I even hate all Malhotras now.

“Don’t know. But I have a girlfriend and I am good with her.” I said modestly.

“Aaahhh. You are one woman man. Well, good for you. But I must tell you that I am quite open with women.” He said with a wink.

I looked at him again. If a girl does not puke after getting one good close look of him, then it should have been achievement for him. But, anyhow, I have to accept all these crap because he is my team mate.

“Hmmm… So you are Casanova?” I asked with an artificial grin.

“Well, I must tell you, handling girls is an art. You should know how to tame girls. The more difficult a girl is, the more I enjoy.” He said proudly.

I spoke in my mind loudly “Is this guy out of his mind? Is he talking about TAMING girls?”

“Well I can’t believe you.” I said to carry on the conversation and know more about him.

“You know, I have dumped a girl 6 years back and still she pleads me to satisfy her. You should know the weak spots of these girls and then they will come to you on their knees.”

Now this line struck me hard and mind was correlating thousand wires together.

“It can’ be. What was her name?” I asked

“Well it’s a secret. And, I should not tell her name because that’s what keeps me going. But you are my friend and since you are one woman man, I will tell you. Her name is Soumya.”

His words were like a 1000 Volt shock. Blood rushed on my face and it felt like my nerves will blast soon. I pressed my knuckles hard to control and get more information.

“How you tamed her actually?” I asked him in the same language he was using. I was filled with disgust and shame in my mind.

“Nothing. The same, I told you earlier. You should know a girl’s soft spot and press hard over there.” He winked again.

“Hi Guys, what you are discussing?” Pooja came back, again at a wrong time. I just wanted to take her neck in my hand and keep punching her hard on her face till she is knocked over.

“Nothing. Just office stuff.” Savraj said. He looked at me with a grin.

“Ok. I will tell you all the office stuff in detail. Your work, team mates, other colleagues, and everything else you need.” Pooja replied with a smile.
Now this was one more shock for me. How come a devil like Pooja is sweet to him? Either this guy has some magical powers or they have some genetic connection because both looks like vampires.

“Meeting will start after 2 hours and Savraj you come with me, we need to do few office formalities.” Pooja stated once again.

“Ok. Bye Sunny.” Said Savraj.

I heaved a sigh of relief. At least now I am left alone and I have no vampires to suck my blood.

Now I was left alone and my mind was recalling all the incidents happened in last 24 hours.
I remembered Soumya and her words echoed in my mind
“Please forgive me…. I will never talk to any one ever in my life”.
Then the words of Savraj echoed
“I have dumped a girl 6 years back and still she pleads me to satisfy her”.
Soumya’s words came back
“I was just talking. And if you don’t like it, I will never talk to any one until you allow.”
Savraj’s words echoed again
“You should know how to tame girls”.
“Please don’t leave me”, Soumya’s words echoed back.
“You should know a girl’s soft spot and press hard over there”, Savraj’s words overpowered her pleading.
“Please forgive me.” Soumya echoed again.
“Her name is Soumya”, Savraj shouted.

I closed my ears using both my hands and put my head on the table in front of me.
I was completely drenched in sweat and feeling drained. My love life is taking toll of me and I am unable to bear the pressure.

I wanted to release some. So, I decided to check out some porn on internet to calm my nerves. Only a girl can relieve you from all the pains given by another girl.

I moved to my cubicle and opened some good local porn site. I immediately get a warning from Network Administrator that I don’t have the privileges to visit any site other than intranet.

Now when a person wants to escape from all the pressures to be able to present him better in the meeting that starts after 2 hours in which he may get his team leadership, these IT people didn’t allow him. I know my boss’s password to access internet but there was only one problem that only one person can access internet at any given moment from any machine. The only problem was that if my boss was accessing internet, his account will be closed and all his opened sessions will be opened from this PC. Now this can get me in serious trouble as he may know that some one is using his password to access internet and I will be his first suspect.

The feeling of accessing porn has taken over me and I want some relief. So, I took a risk and went towards training room once again to check out what my boss is doing. He was giving a presentation on the projector showing a curve which is moving sky high. I don’t know why all these corporate graphs have only one direction i.e. upwards even when company is making heavy losses? Any how, this question involves a big research and I was not in a position to carry out this research at this phase of my life.

The best part was road to porn was clear and I can now relieve all my stresses.
I logged in my PC using my boss’s password and opened the favorite site. It didn’t disappoint me and showed some good girls on the home page itself. I clicked one picture to enlarge it. It started to come in segments. The face of girl came first. Then hair. Then shoulders. Then legs that formed a different pose. And then the session went off and my desktop wallpaper is staring at me.

“Oh shit!!!!” I shouted almost loudly.
“What happened?” Pooja enquired from her cubicle.
“Nothing.” I said. But I knew a lot has happened and I am finished and not only my job but also my entire career is finished.
“What is this???” Now my boss shouted who is close to computer illiterate.

I and Pooja both ran to training room where the meeting was going on with MD.

“Who was using my session, Sunny? How this stuff is there on this laptop”.

I along with Pooja looked at the projector where a girl is standing naked in embarrassing pose and everyone is controlling their laugh.

“Let me check Sir.” I said innocently.

I closed the porn sites and then tried to do some computer engineering by opening control panel and removing some software. I tried to pretend to do some more technical stuff by uselessly roaming in Windows folder and then closing it.

“There is a virus in this laptop sir which is directing the internet explorer automatically to these sites. I have deleted it Sir but it would be better if you scan your entire laptop with an updated anti-virus. You use a different laptop sir. I will take up with IT team to rectify it.” I said confidently. This confidence is my only asset which helps me every time I depend on it.

My boss approves with a nod and said “Ok.”

MD approached me and said “Thanks”.

Now I was being thanked to visit porn sites on office internet. Any how I thanked god and pleaded him to make such arrangements that there will be no further enquiries in this matter and I will come to temple every day for next 7 days. I pledged that I will never watch porn in my entire life.

I left the laptop in my cubicle and went to rest room to pacify my mind from all the things happening to me today.

I came back and put my head on my desk and tried to take a nap.

I saw Soumya standing at a distance. I ran towards her to hold her and held her in my arms to forget all my worries. I ran hard and when I reach closer, I saw a vampire coming in between and jumping on me. Vampire opened his mouth and bit me on my neck and said “Boss is calling you.”
I was astonished to hear such words from a vampire. I looked again and it’s Pooja.

It was a bad dream. But still some part of the dream was true that I want to hug Soumya and Pooja is a vampire.

All my team mates were there in a meeting room and I also rushed towards it.

My Boss started “As you all know that due to global recession this is a tough year for us. But still we performed a lot better than our competitors. Our management has higher goals and wants to fulfill organization’s vision in spite of the recession. We look at this recession as an opportunity. An opportunity to invest when all our competitors are not investing. And reap its benefits when the economy will be booming once again. But to achieve it, we need to meet more stiff targets and work even harder.”

I want to laugh at all this crap. Whether there is recession or no recession, management always wants its employees to work harder and achieve stiff targets. Every year they give the same shit.

“From last one year, you are working without a manager and you all have managed a great show without a manager. Special thanks to Mr Sunny for wearing two hats.”

I knew he was coming on the point I waited for one full year.

“But now, you will have a full time manager. Allow me to present your new manager”

My heart was pounding and I positioned myself to go in front.

“Mr Savraj Malhotra”

The name once again hit me like a big hammer. The bastard has taken my girl and now he is taking my dream as well. I cried to God, how you can be so cruel to me.

That room become suffocating for me. I left the chair and left the room to breathe some air.
I was hurt and broken. God has taken everything from me in one single day. I want to cry but tears were not coming out of my eyes. I want to shout but my voice was choking. I left the office and head straight towards my room.

I thought about Soumya and her betrayal. I thought about Savraj and her cheap tricks taking my job as well as girl. I felt ashamed and realized that I am a biggest loser of this earth who lost his job, dream and girl to the same man.

My mind was fuming with revenge. I wanted revenge from all. Soumya made physical relations with Savraj and refused me even for a kiss from past 5 years. I wanted to teach her a lesson. Savraj was no one but Soumya was my own love with whom I have shared every single aspect of my life in last 5 years.

I reached home and saw that lock is open. I remembered that I have called Soumya in the evening and she has my room’s key. My eyes were looking for revenge.

I entered my room and she was standing in the kitchen making sandwiches.

I held her arm and pushed her towards me. In no time she was standing towards me face to face. She looked in my eyes. My eyes were filled with revenge and hatred towards her.
I put my hand inside her shirt. I touched her inner flesh and moved my slowly upwards. She did not move and kept looking me in my eyes. I looked down with lust and tore her shirt. I threw her on bed and jumped on her like an animal. I bit her on her neck tightly and lifted my face up. I looked in her eyes. She is still looking at me in my eyes. A tear come in her eye and drop from her eyelid to her cheek. I realized that I am actually raping and hurting the only girl I love and she is lying on bed unmoved staring at me with a tear on her cheek.
I hated myself and felt like an animal. Tears fell down my eyes and moved back and cried loud.

“You are the same”, said Soumya.

I don’t know what she meant and tears fell down my eyes with more vigor and I was crying like a child.
She remained unmoved and said again “You are not different from Savraj”

I felt pain again and wanted to hit her hard for this comparison.

“Keep your observations and sexual encounters to yourself only. I am not interested. Leave me” I cried hard.

She said again “Do you want to know what happened between me and Savraj?”

I wiped my tears and remained silent.
She began:
“I know him from my school days. He got admission in Lucknow where as I got a college in Kanpur. When he was leaving he proposed me and I accepted. After 3 months, he came back to Kanpur on vacation. I invited him to my house and made sure that we will get alone time. He came to my room and we chatted for 5 to 10 minutes. He then tried to get cozy and kissed me. He then unbuttoned me and kissed me on my neck. I was a kid then and was feeling very uncomfortable with his advances but I did not resisted initially. He then put his hand inside my jeans. I threw him away and told him that I don’t like all these things. I closed my buttons and normalized everything. He remained silent for few minutes. I think he was hurt and tried to console him and kissed him on his cheek. He kissed me back and again started unbuttoning me. I scolded him that I have already told him that I don’t like all these things. His ego was hurt. He moved his hand and hit me hard on my face. I was down. He then abused me and kicked me hard in my stomach. I cried and shouted. He put the bed sheet in my face and tied me down. I was crying but no one was there to help me. He then raped me and left my house.”

The Word R A P E keeps echoing in my head and all the blood rushed on my head and face.

“I remained in the same position for few hours. Then I gathered some strength and free myself from bed sheet. I cleaned myself and took a pledge that I will make him cry even more in life. I have not told anyone about this incident because I wanted this hatred to live inside me. When you make love to me, it reminds me of the same incident but when I told you to stop and you oblige I felt proud and delighted that you are not the same man. But today, I saw the same animal in your eyes. You are not different from Savraj.” She said and cried loudly.

I felt pathetic and I hated myself to the core.
“I am not same Soumya. I love you.” I cried and hugged Soumya.

Soumya hugged me back and we both cried together. I felt her pain and strength simultaneously. We laid there for hours hugging each other without uttering a single word.

She then slept in my arms along with her tears. I adjusted her in comfortable position in my bed and moved away from her.
I went in front of the mirror and looked in my eyes.
Those were the eyes of a man who lost his respect, dignity and honor in his own eyes.

I want my honor back and I knew how I can get it back.
I went to my balcony and stand on its railing.

I looked down and then looked at the Mumbai city outside.

I shouted loudly with all my strength and looked back to the city.
City was calm and quiet in the night. I thought loudly “Savraj I will make you pay for this”


………… To be Continued………………